Last Blog

In my last blog I voiced some of my concerns and fears and I realized that I don't think people (or maybe women) don't do that.  It can't be just me that has actual concerns when it comes to bringing a child into this world.  I can't be the only one who worries about the changes that a baby will bring.  But I gotta tell you, only the closest of my closest friends has ever voiced these concerns to me while pregnant.

Should I feel ashamed?  Should I go back and retract the last blog because it might offend people?  I don't think I can do that.  All I was doing was writing how I feeling.  Does that mean that I'm not going to love this baby just like I love my precious Kennin and Grayson?  NO.  It doesn't.  Does it mean that I think that Curtis can't do this and will fail me?  NO.  It doesn't mean that either.  It means I'm human.  I get scared about changes.

In other news... Curtis is amazing.  He's been over all weekend, doting on me when I'm emotional or tired.  He caters to my cravings.  He organized my closet so he would have more room for his things (something I should have been doing).  He brought the kids toys and loved on Kennin since she's been sick.  And for my most favorite thing he's done this weekend... (I wish there were a way I could insert a trumpet sounding here)...  He did the dishes 3 freaking times!  The kitchen was a wreck and he just kept doing the dishes... even last night at 11 pm.  He's a fantastic man.  So, thanks Curtis, you make this so much easier for me and I love you!

 AND...

At the last ultrasound they confirmed an August 3rd due date.  Which means that we'll have a brand new baby Lucas the last week of July.  Until then, you'll find me floating in a pool.